Senin, 20 Desember 2010

the last light of hope

Where: Underground Mall
Summary: Vincent has decided Echo needs some new outfits because the one she's arrived in is already stained from defending his life and of course he needs to speak to her about certain things.
Warnings: Probably none but given how Vincent likes to use Echo as a target for his frustration at times...we'll see.



Unlike Gilbert, Vincent had adjusted to certain tenements of this modern life, and this included using the bus to travel long distances. So on Vincent's lap Echo had been given the treat of a view of the city in a "horseless carriage". If the girl had ever been upset or even afraid during the journey- Vincent had not deigned to notice. Just like he had ignored any improper speculations going on among the other passengers of exactly why the girl was sitting in his lap.

The young nobleman was in good enough spirits, or at least he was not agitated enough to show nay outwards sign of distress. He never be forced to publicly shop at home, but he approached the situation like he would have a full ballroom; beaming grin, and a certain air of self absorbed charm. The usual confident act he'd often affect in public. His red eye was as highly visible as ever, and seemed to not hear any insidious whispers of "Newcomers."

"Echo," he called for the girl to stand right at his side before they walked through the doors.

If Echo were something more than just a real doll (and perhaps in front of Oz), she would have been struck with complete awe, looking out the window. Well she WAS looking out the window, but with a dead pan face. Her expression didn't change all that much. Internally, she was amazed with the fact that well, this... moving... thing... didn't require a horse to pull it and... it was so loud. And of course, she ignored the stares just as Vincent did. Just because they were from... now the future... didn't mean that she ignored their "cultural" ways from back home.

Once they were "dropped off" by the loud-without-a-horse-moving-carriage, she stared up at the building. W-- what was this? It was larger than a mansion she had ever soon. Again, her facial expression didn't change, but she was surely in shock. Needless to say, she didn't make it to stand by Vincent's side just yet.

 "Echo?" And Vincent did not ask like to ask twice.

He turned towards her, to see her standing a few feet away. It was more by her failure to heed a command than her expression that alerted him to her awe. He pressed his lips, yet when he asked her to cut a man down she did not hesitate for a second. This state of wonder, it spoke of a world outside him for her, and he moved to slam that window shut.

"This is a modern marketplace, called a mall." He explained as he loomed over her, giving a small fake smile as he leaned down to her eye level. "Do not forget yourself."


She jumped out of her state of wonderment and looked up at her master. "Yes, I understand. Please forgive me for not remembering  place." Now that she was back in the 'real world' so to speak, she moved to stand beside Vincent.

"I would do well to remember that i must always be on guard here." Vincent dropped his hand onto her shoulder and pulled her close to whisper in her ear. "Someone killed your master here you know. Gilbert as well. Now the dead may not remain dead here, but you would not like to ever lose me, would you?"

His voice had taken on a cloying and deadly tone even if for all the world they may have looked like lovers sharing some sort of intimate secret.

Before she could open her mouth to reply about being on her guard, she instantly froze. Someone... killed him? But-- This was Vincent. Somehow, she didn't want to believe it was possible. Her eyes stayed unfocused for a moment before returning to reality.

It was because she wasn't here, probably looking after her master... right?

"Ah! n, no...i-- i  would not like that."

Vincent smirked at Echo's shock. The girl's horror soothed him; as it often did. He pulled away but obviously expected her to follow after him.

"Because then, Echo would have nothing at all," he reminded her in a sing-song tone as if this was a proverbial rhyme. He would not mention Zwei, but the threat was there. Whichever personality pleased Vincent; was the girl that would get to be "out". He stood back as the automatic doors open.

"Come along."

"Yes." That was the only response she could muster up before following her master, walking at his side. Echo would have to keep the awe and wonderment to herself.

Vincent smiled at the reassurance, walking with long strides across the crowded mall. Still he obviously expected Echo to keep up and ignore the lighted decorations that floated across the ceiling of the mall that have no analogue in their world. Still Vincent himself paused before the twenty foot tall Christmas tree that loomed in the center of the mall. His mismatched eyes wandered all the way to the top before falling back on Echo.

"I have employment here, I work at the Lions Gate club as a security guard at night. Raul Creed is my superior." (Echo you had better be taking notes.) "Unlike Pandora however they do not make accommodations for servants. So when I am there keep your NV on and remain awake at home."

Kamis, 09 Desember 2010

kacau

terduduk lemas di depan monitor itu,
nafas begitu lemah hampir tak terasa
bayangan akan ekspresi wajahnya yang pucat
muncul dalam benak yang geram

aku ingin berlari
menarik jaketnya dan memeluknya kuat
seandainya saja aku dapat menghentikannya
mungkin hatinya tidak terasa sakit

perlahan mengulang membaca tulisan kejam itu
ya, tapi dia benar!
apa yang dia katakan benar, meski menyakitkan
kata kata yang sama yang ingin aku ucapkan

dadaku terasa sedikit sakit
kakiku keram
hujan turun
begtu deras

jika saja kata kata itu aku ucapkan,
mungkin kau akan sadar
lalu membenarkan, meski terasa sakit
namun akankah kau mengijinkannya?

dan ocehan lembut dari bibirku nanti adalah sebuah
permohonan..
bukan peringatan,
permohonan untuk tetap disini
bertahan di sini

diluar terasa dingin
aku ingin kau memelukku
menggenggam tanganmu,
sebuah harapan yang begitu kurang ajar

tanganku begitu kasar dan kotor untuk menyentuhmu
aku takut,
jika aku menyentuhmu, kau akan hancur
aku takut

aku mengulurkan tanganku menyentuh keristal bening itu
berjatuhan di depanku,
menghujam tangan ku,
menghukumku

setelah ini bolehkan aku memelukmu?
hujan menghukumku,
atas kesalahan yang tak aku mengerti..
terus tak henti

hingga kabut tebal menelanku
baju putihku carang dan kulitku terlihat
berjalan menuju sebuah lorong penuh keputusasaan
aku ingin berhenti, menghentikan waktu.

mengalir di seluruh tubuhku
rasa sakit yang tak tertahankan
aku ingin kau disini...
permintaanku yang menentang,

aku tak ingin maju,
namun, mundurpun aku tak bisa.
"kemarilah..."
"aku membutuhkanmu..."
aku melanggarnya, memanggil namamu
dengan suara serakku yang baru saja pecah

tiba tiba rantai besi yang mengikat kakiku terbelah
aku bebas..tidak!
rantailah aku lagi!!
aku tak ingin melarikan diri,
aku ingin terus disini..
dalam penjaramu..

Selasa, 23 November 2010

the servant is jealous

the servant is sad
her master doesn't care,
the servant is cry
her heart feel so hurt..

long time, the servant can't contact with her master
the servant wondered to herself,
where is her master?
the servant looks so afraid,
if her master leaveing her again..

some day, the servant see her master talk with a girl.
and her master won't see the servant,
the servant wonder why, and look down..
waiting for her master.

so long,
her master won't to talk with her.
the servant looks so scared,
but the servant won't showed it
so long..
the servant start to despaired
continuing  her questions,

before a long,
the servant know that her master loved someone,
at the time, 
the servant feel her heart is pounding..
by the cold wind on autumn 
autumn in her heart..
the servant hugs herself,
with the tears that won't stop..


at the last night, under the shining half moon,
in her dream
she has come to a place,
and she see that her master is away..
even if the moon returned by the sun
and the shining sun light up her face,
the servant still kept standing at that place.
the servant can't do anything
with the steel that binds her feeling,
the servant just can see her master,
walked away from her,
the servant try to run after him..
but something awaken her soul and make her cry..

"oh god, am i too selfish? i just allowed my master just be mine! but i...
i love him, god.. i'm too afraid, my master will leaving me again. i can't.. i won't..
ah, or... am i jealous? ahk!! stupid!! stupid servant!!"

at next night,
the servant can't sleep..
even if she feels so tired,
she doesn't know why..
that make her heart so sad.
she want to apologize to her master..
so she singing a lulaby for her master,
and hope, it can reach to her master tough the land...



october, 25, 2010. 02.13 am.

Kamis, 21 Oktober 2010

For you

hi everyone, can you hear my voice...
when i'm walking right through the dark alone..
hear me please...

now i'm singing....

EXEC_over.METHOD_SUBLIMATION/. ~  Omness Chs Ciel Sos Infel by : Akiko Shikata

....
....
Chs hymma en famfa der ciel,
Like the birds that fly in the firmament
chs plina en grlanza art fhyu,
Like the plants that dance thanks to the wind
chs hasyu en zassyen der sielp,
Like the fishes that swim in the rivers
chs bister en rana anw dor,
Like the animals that run about in the land
was yea ra messe anw briyante.
I will be happy to convey to the world my voice of joy
Wassee anw fane lusye,
Let´s praise the shine of the love

wassee zess frawr bautifal en afezeria,
Let´s praise the blessing that is as beautiful as a blooming flower
wassee en chs SUBLIMATION, was yea ra omness chs ciel sos infel iem, Wassee!
Let´s praise our own Sublimation, Now, I will be happy to turn the praises into a world for the sake of love. Let´s praise!

Was yea ra wael yorr uteu enw fernia,
I'm happy to see you sleeping with a smile,

en sorr quen art ftt omnis crudea.
and that smile is because of the vanishing of all the sufferings

Was yea ra wael yorr yaserwe, en melenas oure en yanwe oure sor.
I'm happy to see that you are relaxing
Was yea ra grandus ciel sos infel.
and thinking what do you love the most, and what is the most important thing to you
Was ki ra na fogabe anw sial gyaje.
I will concentrate in not forgiving even the slightest mistake.
Wassee fatere gyajlee deata,
Let's praise, so the sinners can be judged
wassee forgandal dauane keenis na nozess,
Let´s praise because the radiance of the dawn will not disappear
wassee en chs SUBLIMATION, was ki ra yorra sarrifis anw omnis noes, Wassee!!
 Let´s praise our own Sublimation Now, offer all of yourselves to me and let´s gather in the way of hope. Let's praise!!

xN rre cia n.m.l. ut talam
The sky is being dyed with the color of the dawn,

ag f.r.l. du tussu/.
and I tremble with the presentiment of change.

xN rre sarr m.n.g. du tyui lyuma/.
Let's try to catch that tiny star once more

xU rre urgn zz tUkd ut LYAglansee,
The laments already aren't reaching us anymore,targue rre qujyu zUzx
and even if the people are still in despair,
ag tUn za vUt dn balduo sefanl/.
they will stop living in the forest of darkness.

Wee yea ra rre lyafre famfa en jass anw iasien,
I'm happy that the morning dew is claimed by the flying butterflies
en tarfe tou yos maun.
and they gently fly down over your closed eyelids
xU rre sefanl s.n.k.k. aje qraffa,
The trees have finished sprouting their new leaves
en h.k.t.t. nafan du ouwua kouf/.
and they have wrapped us gently with their whispers
Was nyasri ga hieg yorra guaysu
I'm sad because you all are depressed

art crudea en raklya art idesy memora.
because of the sufferings and cries that come from the memories of the past

Tasyue anw gyuss en yosyua yor,
I will offer my embrace to you, and console you

tasyue anw ciel en dople anw omnis lamenza,
I will offer myself to this world and I will remove all the laments from it
tasyue en chs SUBLIMATION,
I shall offer me and my Sublimation
was yea ra sonwe sos yor en valwa anw ciel.
I will be happy to sing for your sake, and I will purify the world
Was yea ra chs yuez en yanje yanje pitod yor.
I'm happy to be with you, and I want to be forever, forever with you
Was apea ra chs yuez en yanje yanje pitod yor.
I'm infinitely happy to be with you, and I want to be forever, forever with you

Was apea ra chs yuez.
I'm infinitely happy to be with you
....
....

for my master, i love you....
http://artonelico.isisview.org/mainsite/music/artonelico2.html
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ec9hFNdku4k&feature=related

Sabtu, 16 Oktober 2010

letter for my master

hi N-sama... how are you? i hope you are fine anywhere you are. and if you read this letter ... i just can say sorry.. emm... it's so hard to say. that make me can't sleep tonight or breathing when i can't contact with you. i feel so worse when you are angry to me. honestly... i feel some feeling. i know that feeling and i can't lie to my self about it, N-sama...

i, i love you...

sorry, if i'm dare.. but i can't stoped it. i can't lie, or...

a long time ago, i lose you and now. you are here. i know i'm too stupid. i can't do anything to make you happy or help you when you are sad... i'm sorry i just can be a listener. and i'm too selfish become a servant. i want you, so i become your servant. because i love you and wanna make you be mine. i love you master... and i will become the useless person if i let you leave me again. for the second time...
i know i just a pity servant that loves her master..
i know when you said: "i love you..." to me. it's just a words to his things.

but i falling in love with you, and wonder.. can i love as someone that i love? can i?
can i love you, N-sama?  so i'm just a servant... you know when you said that my heart is pounding.. is it true? i feel so happy when you told me that you love me, but...
i know, may be i just miss you.. because i can't contact with you. and i hope.. someday you can love me, as someone that you love... and this moment is all i have... tommorow... i don't know..
thanks for reading...
i love you N-sama....

Selasa, 12 Oktober 2010

the days that i spent as Echo Nightray